B Native A Part 2
by Rachel Joy Bowman October 01, 2011
I seem to be having a really difficult personal problem I have been trying my best to resolve. I am having a great deal of trouble in getting used to certain sounds. Some of these sounds are very unsettling, distracting, intrusive, annoying and leading to being very irritated, which has a very strong influence on my tone-of-voice and interaction abilities.
I see an individual that is supposed to be coming across somewhat as representing a female. What comes out is a deep male voice. The voice is coarse. The voice is very rough and somewhat raspy, gravelly, gritty and a bit gruff at times. This is very disconcerting to my sensitivities. There seems to be a frequency and/or component that personally is grating to me.
For myself, when conversing they will not let me finish what I am trying to say. There seems to be an immediate need to jump in, interrupt, talking right over the top of you, and then ramble on and on and on and on in one continuous constant stream of words after my very first sentence; no breath, break, or pause to offer a reply or comment. Many of the words seem to be just fillers that can be best left out – unsaid. The subject is frequently changed. The content is usually a lengthy dissertation or very long lecture (sometimes approaching sermonizing) all about themselves – their exploits. Many are repeated over and over again ego oozing out of each sentence. With any conversation by any two people they must feel an incredible urgency to but-in and put their two cent opinion into and about everything and anything; whether they are a part of the conversation or not. It seems to me that they have an incessant fascination in hearing their own voice all the time over anyone and everyone else’s.
The fact that someone talks to themselves is not a big issue, but when they are very loud and constant during any time period it becomes distracting and bothersome reaching the point of being obnoxious, annoying, and irritating (which has a very definite effect on tone-of-voice in responding to the audible intrusion). Other audible intrusions to cover up are moaning, groaning, gnashing, snorting, grinding, grunting, griping, wheezing, and complaining. I feel like I am forced to endure the cries of pain much too long. If the pain is so bad that is causes one to cry out so much then quit doing whatever is causing the pain; at least until one can get to a doctor to get whatever fixed or some relief. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was just occasional but the noise pollution is incessantly continuous and loud. A simple effort to lower the sound volume level down to zero would be a tremendous relief.
I can not tell if you are talking to yourself, or to someone else, or to me. If you want to address me then call my name first so that I may know to direct my attention to what you are about to say. I have been noticing that when listening to someone else tell a story an excessive amount of interruption, interjecting, and intrusion has been happening; trying to finish sentences and trying to tell the story yourself. This is a something that everyone should be trying every effort to cut down on.
These are my feelings that I am trying my best to address. Feelings are nonsensical, illogical, no rhyme or reason, and cannot be helped – they just are. I can avoid these feelings, I can bury these feelings, I can cover up these feelings or I can deal with these feelings.
The solution that I have presently come up with, so far, are to use earplugs, headphones, operation of a motor, such as a fan, and/or closing doors to muffle or cover up to screen out the sound pollution. I do not feel that it is mandatory for me to talk to them or them to me. I do not feel that it is mandatory for me to listen to them or them to me. I do not feel that it is mandatory for me to have anything to do with them or them with me. Treat each other as if we were just some other guests at a hotel. Please do not bother with be nor speak to me. Take all questions, replies, and/or comments – no matter what – anything and everything – any and all dealings between us should go through the Master.
I have not heard or seen any evidence of any efforts toward doing anything about these subjects. No reading or studying. No practicing or learning any lessons, routines, or classes I have not heard or seen any indications or efforts toward modifying diet, exercises, routines, supplements, or anything else that would demonstrate any effort toward any real goal or actual changes.
If you can not find a way of compromising with this issue then I think it would be the best option at present to remove myself from being a thorn in the side of my Master and remove any cause of anymore harm. I will try to do my very best to keep out of the way, out of sight, and out of mind whenever I am in/at this location.
The author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
B Native A
by Rachel Joy Bowman August 29, 2011
SUBJECT 1. I seem to be having a really difficult personal problem I have been trying my best to resolve. I am having a great deal of trouble in getting used to the sounds. Some of these sounds are very unsettling, distracting, intrusive, annoying and leading to being very irritated, which has a very strong influence on my tone of voice and interaction abilities.
I see an individual that is supposed to be coming across somewhat as representing a female. What comes out is a deep male voice. The voice is coarse. The voice is very rough and somewhat gravelly, gritty and a bit gruff at times. This is very disconcerting to my sensitivities.
When conversing they will not let you finish what you are trying to say. There seems to be an immediate need to jump in, interrupt, talking right over the top of you and then ramble on and on and on and on in one continuous constant stream. No pause or break to offer a reply or comment. Many of the words seem to be just fillers that can be best left out – unsaid. The subject is frequently changed. The content is usually a lengthy dissertation or very long lecture (sometimes approaching sermonizing) all about themselves – their exploits. Many are repeated over and over again ego oozing out of each sentence.
The fact that someone talks to themselves is not a big issue, but when they are very loud it becomes distracting and bothersome reaching the point of being obnoxious, annoying, and irritating (which has a very definite effect on tone of voice in responding to the audible intrusion). Other audible intrusions to cover up, are moaning, groaning, gnashing, snorting, grinding, wheezing, and complaining.
These are my feelings that I am trying my best to address. Feelings are nonsensical, illogical, no rhyme or reason, and cannot be helped – they just are. I can avoid these feelings, I can bury these feelings, I can cover up these feelings or I can deal with these feelings.
The solution that I have presently come up with, so far, are to use earplugs, headphones, operation of a motor, such as a fan, and/or closing doors to muffle or cover up to screen out sounds. I do not feel that it is mandatory for me to talk to them or them to me. I do not feel that it is mandatory for me to listen to them or them to me. I do not feel that it is mandatory for me to have anything to do with them or them with me. Any dealings between will go through the Master. They should also.
SUBJECT 2. I would like to respectfully request that I be relieved from washing the dishes, running the dishwasher, tidying up the kitchen, and maintaining the refrigerator. It was mentioned that there was a desire to turn the kitchen over to the new roommates. Would you please start that assignment right away. Please consider including the duty of picking up and cleaning up the kitchen, being responsible for making sure the cooking equipment, tools and supplies, and dishes are kept clean (also the running of the dishwasher in a timely, efficient, and economical manner).
The person(s) running the kitchen would best be the individuals to take on these responsibilities as they should know where everything is at and rely on themselves to make sure everything is where and how they want them to be.
I would ask to still continue the privilege of performing the coffee, vitamin, and orange (when available) routine in the mornings.
SUBJECT 3. Other observations that may or may not be of any importance:
The wearing of the cloth underpants creates extreme embarrassment by any onlooker who happens to be exposed to a dangling log. Tight, elastic stretch underwear with some kind of panty liner or other contour control shaper would smooth out and help hide the droopy log look.
The skirts waistband is worn way to high up under the breasts. That fashion is called an empire waist and should be reserved for those designs. Such a high waist makes the wearer seem and look way too much like a nerdy pantywaist and tends to draw way too much of the wrong kind of attention.
I have not heard or seen any evidence of any efforts toward doing anything about these subjects. No reading or studying. No practicing or learning any lessons, routines, classes, or appointments. I have not heard or seen any indications or efforts toward modifying diet, exercises, routines, supplements, or anything else that would demonstrate any effort toward any real goal or actual changes.
The author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
Bible References
GLBTQI References
by Rachel Joy Bowman July 01, 2011
From the book “Evolution’s Rainbow” 2004 Joan Roughgarden, University of California Press, Berkeley and L. A., California – ISBN 0-520-24679-9.
Page 358 to Page 360 TRANSGENDER IN THE BIBLE. References the HOLY BIBLE containing the Old and New Testaments translated out of the original tongues: and with the former translations diligently compared and revised, by his majesty’s special command authorized King James version with chapter summaries. Published by The Church of JESUS CHRIST of Latter Day Saints, Salt Lake City, Utah, USA.
Page 472. ISAIAH Chapter 56, verses 03 through 05.
3. Neither let the son of the stranger, that hath joined himself trot e Lord, speak, saying, The Lord hath utterly separated me from his people: neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree.
4. For thus saith the Lord unto the eunuchs that keep my Sabbaths, and choose the things that please me, and take hold of my covenant;
5. Even unto them will I give in mine house and within my walls a place and a name better than of sons and of daughters: I well give them an everlasting name, that shall not be cut off.
Page 618. MATTHEW Chapter 19, verses 11 and 12.
11. But he said unto them, all men cannot receive this saying, save they to whom it is given.
12. For there are some eunuchs, which were so born from their mother’s womb: and there are some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men: and there be eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven’s sake. He that is able to receive it, let him receive it.
Page 694. ACTS Chapter 8, verses 26 t0 40.
26. And the Angel of the Lord spake unto Philip, saying, Arise, and go toward the south unto the way that goeth down from Jerusalem unto Gaza, which is desert.
27. And he arose and went: and, behold, a man of Ethiopia, an eunuch of great authority under Candace queen of the Ethiopians, who had the charge of all her treasure, and had come to Jerusalem for to worship,
28. Was returning, and sitting in his chariot read Esaias the prophet.
29. Then the Spirit said unto Philip, go near, and join thyself to this chariot.
30. And Philip ran thither to him, and heard him read the prophet Esaias, and said, understandest thou what thou readest?
31. And he said, how can I, except some man should guide me? And he desired Philip that he would come up and sit with him.
32. The place of the scripture which he read was this, he was led as a sheep to the slaughter; and like a lamb dumb before his shearer, so opened he not his mouth:
33. In his humiliation his judgment was taken away: and who shall declare his generation? For his life is taken from the earth.
34. And the eunuch answered Philip, and said, I pray thee, of whom speaketh the prophet this? Of himself, or of some other man?
35. Then Philip opened his mouth, and began at the same scripture, and preached unto him Jesus.
36. And as they went on their way, they came unto a certain water: and the eunuch said, see, here is water; what doth hinder me to be baptized?
37. And Philip said, if thou believest with all thine heart, thou mayest. And he answered and said, I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.
38. And he commanded the chariot to stand still: and they went down both into the water, both Philip and the eunuch; and he baptized him.
39. And when they were come up out of the water, the Spirit of the Lord caught away Philip, that the eunuch saw him no more: and he went on his way rejoicing.
40. But Philip was found at Azotus: and passing through he preached in all the cities, till he came to Caesarea.
Some other references found in Joan Roughgarden’s “Evolution’s Rainbow:
Some feminine traits: Gentleness, empathy, nurturance, and grace.
Origen of Alexandria and the Valesians.
Thecla, Eugenia, “clothed in Christ”.
mukhannathun of the hadith, Jehanne D’Arc, Naomi and Ruth, Jonathan and David, and Sodom and Gibeah (Judges Chapter 19, verses 22 to 30 – Page 185).
For comments, questions, and/or more information, the above article author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
Roommate XIII
Roommate Xlll:
by Rachel Joy Bowman, July 01 2011
I have some issues that I have to deal with. Some affect my inter-relations with you. I would like you to know how I feel and what my personal opinions are. When you first came to us, you were full of enthusiasm and promises. You built up Sir’s hopes and played on his dream of owning His very first brand new car He has ever had. That dream was shattered and I saw that it broke His heart to have that opportunity stolen from Him. I blame you, mostly, for not being as prepared as you maybe you should have been. You showed an incredible lack of financial management. A two hour trip in the car with our gas was wasted.
Then the check to Sir did not deliver funds to His checking account. The account became $500.00 overdrawn. The check to the P. G. & E. bounced, now we owe about $300.00. The check to the rent bounced. We became two and a half months behind in the rent. I had to provide over $1,200.00 in cold hard cash on the barrel to help rescue Sir with the rent and P. G. & E. That leaves me not being able to pay my Adventist medical bills or for electrolysis, breast pump, or any of my other bills. Sir used His funds in his checking account to take you shopping. All this totals out at around $5,000.00 loss for Sir. At this present time my opinion is that there has been a theft by fraud.
You have supplied food stamps to help us with food - that is appreciated, however, we do NOT need any food from you. We need cash! The rent does NOT accept food for payment and P. G. & E. does not accept food for payment. We rent out the room you are staying in to help pay for rent and utilities. If you can not or will not pay rent we will need to find someone who can and will. The rent is to be paid in advance, in full, in cash.
You are commended for trying to make Conklin work for you and others, but the approach may be lacking in results. Using Social Media is for marketing only. You need to do more, you are spinning you’re wheels. You still need to get out and “ask for an order”!(one of the major rules of any sales training).
This apartment is our home for living in – not a retail store or business location. The home/office is open Monday through Friday 8:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. Try to arrive after 9:00 a.m. and leave before 4:30 p.m. The magic jack phone is our personal home phone. Please use the Comcast phone as the business phone. I paid for the magic jack phone. Please obtain ink, paper, and a printer for the business. I bought the printer and pay for the ink and paper.
The bathroom is a communal area. Everyone has to share – including cleaning up after themselves. I am not your mother, wife, girlfriend, or maid. I am the live in housekeeper for my Master and His spouse.
In regards to you being here with us presumably to transition, I am just not able to see any ambition, desire, willingness, or effort to even start upon a journey to becoming a female. At this present time, and at this present point, the evidence I see is that you are just NOT a suitable candidate for transitioning at this time. There is overwhelming evidence showing that you are just too much of an all macho male jock. We need to make room for those who really and truly show a desire, ambition, effort, and need for our help and services to transition. We do not have facilities nor time to be wasting on fakes, cons, or fraudulent want-a-bes.
I am trying to manage my personal issues in our inter-personal relationship by implementing the following policy that I have written down for you to refer to:
I have already hurt you and I got hurt for it.
I don’t want to hurt you anymore, so I will remove myself and stay away.
I can’t put my foot in my mouth if I don’t open it!
I will not speak to you!
I will not touch you!
I will not look at you!
I will not care about you!
I will not think about you!
I will not talk about you!
I will not come anywhere near you!
It is too dangerous for us to be around each other!
It’s not fair to you; it’s not fair to me!
You will get hurt; I will get hurt!
All communication will be through my MASTER!
You do the same.
My personal feelings are to not be anywhere near you at any time or any place. Where you are, I will try not to be. From this moment on you should go through my Master; I will not respond.
Sincerely, Master’s slave.
For comments, questions, and/or more information, the above article author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
Submission Is:
Submission is not about suffering. Submission is about service.
Submission is not about humiliation. Submission is about humility.
Submission is not about pain . . .. . . Submission is about being present.
Submission is not about being used. Submission is about being of use.
Submission is not about control. Submission is about letting go.
Submission is not about what is done to you. Submission is about what you do for others.
Submission is not about abuse. Submission is about acceptance.
Submission is not about proving anything. Submission is about being real.
Submission is not about contempt. Submission is about respect.
Submission is not about how you look. Submission is about how much you care.
Submission is not about denying yourself. Submission is about being open.
Submission is not about bondage. Submission is about freeing your spirit.
Submission is not about punishment. Submission is about discipline.
Submission is not about being unable to escape. Submission is about being committed.
Submission is not about fear. Submission is about trust.
Submission is not about sex. Submission is about love.
Submission is not about pleasure. Submission is about happiness.
Submission is not about submission. Submission is about obedience.
House Rules
A) This is NOT a polymorphous household! This IS a Master-Slave household! The Master does what He wants, when He wants, how He wants. The Master is exempted from all rules and/or conditions. The Master has all final say in everything and can set or change rules at will. Everyone MUST defer to and respect the Master.
At this time the slave’s duties and chores include being employed as a live in housekeeper (in exchange for room and board). The housekeeper is a paid position. The pay is used for the cost of the room and board.
1) You are a paying guest in this house. You are paying for a room to hold your belongings in and to sleep in. You are paying for meals as prepared and served by the Master. Payment must be secured in advance for meals.
2) There is NO maid service specifically for you! Keep your room clean and tidy. Make every effort to support the cleanliness and tidiness of the entire abode.
3) The dining room table is for eating and food. Please confine all food and drink to the table. NO food or drink anywhere else, except a capped bottle of water (no cups).
4) No dishes, etc. are to be left anywhere but the kitchen. It is very strongly encouraged that you obtain and use several cups, glasses, dishes, and/or utensils that you commonly use on a frequent basis to reuse daily. You are responsible for insuring their sanitation.
5) You may receive and send phone calls and mail here.
6) Whatever and whenever the Master decides will be curfew (quiet).
7) Parking is reserved. Covered parking needs special permission. You may use any uncovered parking area without permission.
8) Visitors may be screened per the Master’s whim.
9) There will be a list of duties and chores for slaves and/or submissives to carry out. All items must be approved and overseen by the Master.
10) The Master is married and his spouse is the default mistress whenever the Master deems necessary.
11) Use appropriate language when in common areas of apartment.
12) NO smoking, heavy drinking, or using in apartment.
13) Be considerate and watchful of the Mistress’s mobility and seating.
What Is A Trans
Force Feminizing a Female (TS). .What is a transsexual?
Many people in this group have no idea what a transsexual is or how you could possibly force feminize a genetic female. The idea that seems to be the norm is that the people who come here are males looking to be forced in to panties and heels and are sissies or cross dressers.
Yes that is part of this group that is probably at least half of the people here but not the whole. Many of us are not males looking to be dressed up; we are women looking to have someone take away the androgynous and masculine parts of us away.
For example, you have a girl who was raised by a single father who was taught to work the farm and spit chew in a can. She may deep down wish to be a pretty princess but due to fears or doubts not allow herself to do it. A Mistress of Master steps in and makes her in to a flashy dress wearing, make up applying, girly-girl. That is an example though very basic, of force feminizing a genetic female.
For a transsexual it is much the same. We, despite having been born with a penis or a male voice or being raised as males, were never at all male other than maybe physically. Our brains, our hormones, our thoughts, our souls, are female. Many of us are born borderline hermaphrodites or full on hermaphrodites to begin with.
We are looking for someone to help correct the ideals and stereotypical man dribble that was pushed on to us by peers, family, or for some, religious beliefs. We want the parts of us that were forced to be male, taken and replaced by the female equivalent.
Teach us how to walk, talk, sit, do our hair, makeup, and be a passable lady.
Now some smart-ass read that and said, "Well how is that forced?" The post before should have already answered that question but I will go ahead and restate it a second time for anyone still genuinely confused.
If you are raised to be a stone hard man and never cry, but are a female on the inside, those ideals still get instilled over time. So when you come out as being female you will still bottle the emotions up and refuse to cry most of the time. So the person who is feminizing you will help to FORCE that idea away and telling "just cry... let go...” Since these things are so engrained in to us from early child hood when being raised "male" much of it has to be forced out even if we understand we want it.
I was forced to give up all my male clothing, I have wanted to do it for a long time, but have been giving myself excuse after excuse not to do it. Finally, Mistress Mary forced me to it.
I, We, Transsexuals, are not men, or boys, or bois, or gurls, we are females just like any other female. So when addressing a post, please keep that in mind, thank you.
Can't all the TRANSGENDER folk just get along!
^-- We tried it your way but the polar bears were indecisive.... all joking aside... who isn't getting along again? I was explaining the fact that some people on this group assume if you are a part of it you are instantly the equivalent of a cross dresser, which to some is an atrocious notion. It is insulting to us not because there is anything wrong with cross dressers or cross dressing, but it equates to us being seen as male which is a stab in the throat. I tackled the subject very lightly though, as you can see no one has really felt the need to outburst in anger or troll me for what I have said. As for your second comment, you are a bit right and a bit wrong; many transsexuals have genetic female organs or an extra chromosome that allows them to get their hormones and surgeries covered by health insurance. There is a distinct difference between a male and female brain, and a large percentage of transsexual women at the very least have a female brain that tells the body it is wrong and is why the suicide rate is so high. It is not something you CAN just get over.
Sorry if that turned in to a bit of a rant, just sometimes get arrogated by people who try and separate TS women from women. It is like telling a woman she is no longer a woman if she loses the ability to have a child or has to have her breasts removed or telling a man he is no longer a man if his penis has to be removed to save his life. Sexual organs are a SMALL part of what should make up sex or gender.
This is of course all my opinion and I do want you to know I am not attacking you and I respect your opinion but I love a good debate and I love standing strong on things I believe in. Many civilizations and Native American tribes revered and even worshiped transsexuals in the past saying they were of two souls and to be cherished.
Not to bring religion in to this too much but I am friends with many Christians and as many know I am a pagan. Among the disputes I have with these friends is the fact that I am transsexual. A few like to joke saying I can't be a witch or truly do the spells that say you have to be female because I was born "male" which is far from true medically and mentally. I in an annoyed joking manner asked them, if they descended from their bodies as a spiritual being of light, what gender they would be. They seem confused and I came again with, "If your spirit in your religion seems to be one of the most important aspects, shouldn't the soul mean more than the physical body. The flesh stays here; the soul is what lives on forever. My soul is female, so how would your god treat in me in such a case?" The response was amusing.
The thing that eventually was asked was, "God doesn't make mistakes, why did he makes you a boy if he wanted you to be a girl." again I replied with a bit of a smirk, "For the same reason he would make a legless boy who competes in the Olympics and wins. "
Actually I have 2 genetic girls that I force feminize. They like being butch - they don't like wearing makeup and fixing their hair or doing their nails. I put them in little pink out fits with pentifores and treat them like a 7 year old girl.
Also as our sticky discussion states - nothing is "truly" forced. It's all consensual and mostly role play. But I know many post op transsexuals that are very fetish and love role play, age play and forced feminization.
Feminization doesn't necessarily mean turn them female - it's more about feminine expression and finding stereotypical female roles and behaviors. I also know that not all girls are necessarily feminine - so I could "force" someone into some jeans and t-shirt and call it feminization. I could - but it's not in the spirit of the fetish or interest.
Some people like it - some people don't - but we don't need to start putting labels on who should or shouldn't or would or wouldn't do it.
Feminization is not JUST for genetic boys or boys that identify as female - it's for everyone that finds it a little mentally stimulating.
On the religion comment (and if you don't believe in God then you can skip it this comment) - Further this is off topic even a better reason to skip it 
. But I'll say it anyways - I don't believe God makes mistakes - and if you were born a boy and feel you should have been a girl - I think it's arrogant to think He made a mistake. Maybe it was part of His plan for you to bring the light all these points so that we could all learn to live together harmoniously. A struggle of a transgendered person can raise awareness and compassion in people not only to our struggles but to those of others. I hate that I was born a guy but maybe I wouldn't have appreciated being female as much if I were born female - I don't know - but I don't believe God made a mistake - maybe you don't like His decision to make an example out of some of us - but well that's what God does - it's all through the Bible old and new testament.
"I don't believe God makes mistakes - and if you were born a boy and feel you should have been a girl - I think it's arrogant to think He made a mistake."
From that perspective... God doesn't make mistakes, he did it on purpose.
It is arrogant, beyond BELIEF that ANY human could possibly understand God's Intent. If you believe in God, you have to assume that He made every single person the way they are.
It is up to US to decide how to deal with what He gave us. HOWEVER, it is NOT our responsibility to conform to "society's" view of what we SHOULD be, based on the way our body happens to be configured.
And if you want to go down that path... If God created us in His image, I wonder what that says about those of us that are TS, or TG, or Hermaphrodites... I suppose that means that he is all of those things too? In which case... what's the problem?
I honestly wish there was a better term for what we are. I don't like anything with the word 'trans' in it. Because that implies that I was one gender, and decided to switch to the other. The idea of transitioning seems very strange to me. For me, feminizing would be a process of not hiding who I really am, rather than something I would have to work at, learn, or medically alter. I am and always have been a female, but I've chosen to hide behind male clothing for so long, it's hard for me to imagine doing anything else.
I've come to understand that simply putting on the clothing will never define my gender. There are lots of people out there wearing dresses who aren't actually female, and there are also lots of females wearing male clothing. What matters first and foremost is how you see yourself.
Some religions (Hinduism, for example) would certainly ascribe transgender or hermaphroditic characteristics to God. If there are any trans religious folks out there, you should definitely do some reading about non-Abrahamic paths to God.
As for the main discussion, I'm not sure how to explain my own experiences. Mistress has helped and encourages my transition. She tells me I'm beautiful and that what she wants is for me to be happy, and we both agree that this is what achieves that. I started down this road before she and I were involved, and I'm not reliant on her to break my barriers down or anything. Regardless, she’s a tremendous source of encouragement. Her love makes me want to be a better woman.
I can be a pretty big flamboyant glamour-puss all on my own; even dressed down en-femme I prefer corsets and heels with my shirts/blouses and slacks, and I love big beautiful wigs. The "force femme" in our relationship comes from Mistress's gentle insistence that I remain en-femme as much as absolutely possible, and from the bimboification/sissification/dollification elements in which I'm expected to bury my ego and become a frilly, servile plaything. That isn't always on. The other way in which I identify with this terminology is her training me to become more sexually effeminate; I'm a receiver now, and my clit is for teasing (and vibing/stimulation if She's pleased), not penetrating anything. That's been mind-blowing. It's the best I've ever had.
The topic about, are TS women really forced to be feminine is and has been on my mind for some time. I agree we were programmed by society, family and church to be men since our gender was stated as male when we were born. That’s just a physical description of us not who we were or are. For some most traits taught to us, to be men, is to a degree with work possible to de-program. But it is not really a complete de-programming. We still have some male traits that keep surfacing without our knowledge and sometimes at the least opportune times. To be forced to be ultra fem, bimboification/sissification/dollification or even a maid of servitude is something we would not do on a normal basis. This is not how we live day to day but it does instill in us even more feminine attributes. I agree it is a form of forced feminization even when we live as women.
The Collar Around My Neck
DON’T speak to me!
DON’T touch me!
DON’T look at me!
DON’T care about me!
DON’T think about me!
DON’T talk about me!
DON’T come anywhere near me!
It is too dangerous for us to be around each other!
It’s not fair to you; it’s not fair to me!
You will get hurt; I will get hurt!
All communication will be through my MASTER!
I will do the same!
Los prejuicios y la intolerancia en todas sus formas es vicioso, media, y el mal!
Rachel Joy Bowman January 1, 2010.
The author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
Worthless Words
Words without action are worthless, meaningless, useless bunch of empty hot air!
Show what you are about. Prove yourself.
Don’t pass the buck. Don’t force someone else to do your dirty work for you.
The what and how are on you!
You have years and years of experience, you have many years of education, and you have years of training.
Don’t become impotent and rendered stupid, idiotic, moron. Don’t throw away all of those resources of experience, education, and training for nothing; a complete and total waste. Don’t let them become meaningless, useless, and worthless.
Los prejuicios y la intolerancia en todas sus formas es vicioso, media, y el mal!
Rachel Joy Bowman January 1, 2020,
The author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
Prejudice and bigotry in every form
Prejudice and bigotry in every form
is vicious, mean, and evil!
Los prejuicios y la intolerancia en todas sus formas es vicioso, media, y el mal!
by Rachel Joy Bowman July 1, 2011
Instead of choosing accommodation like Jeff has,
you chose rejection.
Instead of choosing cooperation like Jeff has,
you chose exclusion.
Instead of choosing to work with me like Jeff has,
you chose to sabotage my efforts.
You have shown yourself to be a bigot,
discriminating against a disadvantaged minority.
You have shown yourself to be a bully
by how you did what you did.
You have shown yourself to be a hypocrite
by stating that you are all-inclusive,
but not including me;
by stating that you welcome all,
but not welcome me;
by stating full equality for all,
but not for me.
You are reacting to a nightmare label that I was forced to inherit almost twenty years ago and not to the individual person you got to know.
I thought you were my friend but you stabbed me in the back and turned your back on my earnest efforts to show that I was really trying to be a better me.
The author can be reached at racheljoy6@hotmail.com.
